Lyrics

Depressive thoughts haunt me everywhere
Trapped in a life without a care
Everyday beaten down by life
Like being punished for being alive
Happiness is hating me
I’m someone I don’t want to be
When all my needs get ripped away
What is left for me to stay

This is what I deserve, treated like I’m less than human
Someone weak and sick, someone who’s not worth a damn
This is what I deserve, to live a life of agony
To only feel good in the moment just to feel worse when it’s taken away
This is what I deserve, a lifetime of suffering
I need to end it in anyway, to end all the hurting in me
This is what I deserve, this is what life is meant for me
I don’t know how much more I can take, I want, I want, I want out!

Go! I am nothing in this world!
Gutter trash litter! I just don’t care! There is nothing her for me!
In a life of pain and I can’t fucking take it anymore!
All I am here is gutter trash, litter! I try not to care! I try not to care!

Nothing in my life is fair
Thoughts of harm are always there
Self-infliction to ease the pain
Cut the flesh and watch it drain
Been suffering for way too long
Even the man I was is now gone
Doesn’t matter how hard I try
Won’t matter if I live or die

This is what I deserve, this is who I am
I hate myself today, and I’m nothing but a waste
This is what I deserve, I am feeling so fucking empty
This is who I am, just a waste of life a waste of pain
This is what I deserve, I’m someone who I don’t want to be
I need the end to set me free, to take away all the pain in everything
This is what I deserve, the pain I feel is too real
I’m ready to get out in time, before I stay another day in this life

No! I am nothing to this world!
Gutter trash litter! I just don’t to care! There is nothing her for me!
In a life of pain and I can’t fucking take it anymore!
All I am here is gutter trash, litter! I try not to care! I try not to care!